In His Perfect Time
As I grow older; as I slowly build the foundation of my small family, I begin to realize how hard the term adulting is. Presently, I could no longer sit on laurels and do things the way I do before. I begin to be more cautious of the things that I do on a daily basis, I became more strict on how I spend each second of my time. My attitude towards work has changed, and I became more eager for career and financial advancement. The past two years have been a neverending struggle to climb up the corporate ladder.
This time last year, I was praying so hard to the Lord to grant me the promotion I have worked so hard for. Last year, I tried to apply for a position, for the promotion I have longed for- for the third time. Unfortunately it never came. I never knew why. I never understood why.
2016 started with so much heartbreak and insecurities. I began to question my self. I started doubting my strength and capabilities. It was tough to be rejected not just once, but thrice. It was more difficult to see your younger colleagues advance before you. I have been working for eight years with the same company and I could say that I have given my best to perform and deliver what is expected. I may have done some mistakes along the way but I owned up to it and outperformed myself. However, there are really things that you can never have -- no matter how much you worked hard for it.
After three rejections, I never gave up. I tried to step back and tried my luck again. In the middle of the year, an opportunity for advancement opened again and I tried to apply -- for the fourth time. You guessed it right. I did not get it. For the fourth time, I was rejected. I never knew why.
You could just imagine the amount of heartbreak that I feel after all those rejections that I got. For many months I never understood why The Lord has never answered my prayer. Now, I understand why,
In His magical way, God is starting to unfold His plans not just for me, but for my whole family. Today, He made me understood the phrase that "everything happens for a reason". Finally, He revealed to me the reason why I was never getting the promotions I worked hard for. It is because He is promoting not just me, but my whole family -- my son, and my husband to a better and brighter life abroad. I finally understood that all this time, all He has been doing is to shape our destiny and to prepare me for a bigger role that I should play the coming year. That is to become a wife to my husband, a mother to my son and a provider for my family.
As the Lord slowly reveals His plan for me and our family, I am also praying that He guide me with enough wisdom and strength do well in the next challenge He is giving me. I would like to end this post with this timely quote I saw online. Cause really, if you Trust The Lord with all your heart, He will make your path straight.
Til my next post